I am having a hard time writing an article suited for Love Season. Sharing you this video that left me in tears, instead.
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Boat Ride
It was a cloudy day, not much different with several others. Although, the sun is there, it is hidden by patches of gray clouds on the vast blue sky. Giant ocean waves are crashing violently against the beach leaving in its wake a thunderous spray. But in spite our heavy bags filled with camping gears, cooking set, noodles and canned foods, to our simple phones-turned-music player and digicams, we are all set to bravely conquer reaching the cove amidst the sea’s state.
Sitting in front of the boat rolling against the waves is like a bumpy roller coaster ride. With a wide view of the ocean, I feel as if I’m the only one chartering an unknown destination. With the cold sea breeze enveloping me, I close my eyes, grip the sides of the boat and wish that the destination is worth all the troubles anyway.
By the time the boat reaches the calm portion of the ocean, I thought a smooth ride would finally start. But then the engine stops. The boatmen started speaking an incomprehensible dialect and attempted to restart the engine several times. I felt so scared but your reminder to relax gave me an assurance that the situation is under control.
After few adjustments of the engine, it finally restarted. My fear dissipated and I went back to closing my eyes and tightly gripping the side of the boat. A few minutes later, I glanced at you. I saw you sitting comfortably. Your eyes were widely open and your hands were loosely positioned at the sides.
I tried to do what you do; I opened my eyes and loose my grip. Then I saw the beautiful clear line that divides the muddy brown and oceanic bluish color. I started seeing other boats of different sizes manned by brave fishermen. I saw the fisherman who caught a big fish, the numerous waterfalls that grace the sides of the mountain we are passing by and the crashing of waves against the breakwater.
From time to time, I close my eyes to prevent the salt water to get to my eyes. Sometimes, I put back my tight grip when the waves are crashing so hard on our boat. Sometimes, I glanced at you and soundlessly whisper my thoughts. And most of the time, I just dream that a beautiful destination awaits you and me after the ride.
After an hour of rolling with the waves, we were finally closing in on the cove. The boatmen gave us instruction to hold on. The boatmen waited for the best time to ride a certain giant wave and as daring as it sound, we rode the wave in order to get near the island. After few moments, I saw two men along the shore with their dogs that seem to be eagerly waiting for our arrival.
Hello World!
how are you?
hey folks, i know that i haven’t written much anything here. not anything with good sense – not something that could uplift your spirit, or break your heart, or at least awaken your curiosity. nothing! this page is becoming so boring that you could even decide to remove it from your blogroll. Lol. my last post is dated last february! wow! and today is already july. i can’t think of any valid excuse (at least valid for all of you. hahaha).
i have my usual work, been here for the past 3 years of my life. just adding some side activities in my career. oh, well. boring things to share right. hahaha.
well, for the past months…i was gone for cheap travels. it is not the usual long weekend getaways that we can have a laidback life. since i climb mt pulag last january, i have been dragging myself and enjoying climbing mountains. i became an instant fan of outdoor stuff and outdoor shops! when i go to malls, i make sure to pass the outdoor shop. even though items are generally the same, sometimes i find something unusual and new at their shop – like an expensive bandana or a very small towel! or a compass or a pedometer. outdoor shops is my forever21(at least for now). 
with the cheap travels, i learned to value the companionship, friendship. companionship and friendship that can traverse the kahirapan sa pag-akyat ng bundok, the scorching heat, the heavy back pack, and whatever. hahaha. i particularly love the camping – bonfire, socials, laughter, and craziness!
after the fully loaded summer, somewhere on the last week of april, i finally decided to get back to a serious life of nerds and school. yes, graduate school welcomed me. it took me x persons to be my advisers and long y hours of talk…and finally deciding to let go one of my precious ‘dreams’. not really letting it go but at least letting it go for now. i have completed and submitted my requirements at grad school on the last day of its application. i had hard time getting responses for recommendation – its summer and maybe some of them are not even checking emails. Fast forward, i finally entered grad school!
grad school that first few weeks are so exciting and next weeks after that are brain drainer. hahaha!. the idea that I’m back with my stat books and theories excite me everyday. that passion gives me energy to work and study at the same. that same passion drives me to seek God’s favor and excellence in my life.
with grad school comes challenges of being in a new school, of pool of strangers, of 3-year backlog in the academe world and to my field per se. but what comes with these challenges is my drive to push myself harder. to at least value the favor, the stage of life where i am right now, the little time of idleness or sleep, the smile and laughter of your friends, that friends who never fail to support you in anyway, that someone who would be there to listen to you from your nonsense argument to senseful thoughts, or those who would give their special time to you.
i can’t think of a glamorous ending for this entry. too much hanging and clattered thoughts, so would it be fine if i’ll just say….
i’m okay and i’m living a life! Thank God!
until next time, dear few readers! I hope it will be sooner.
The World Needs Men…
The World Needs Men…
• who cannot be bought;
• whose word is their bond;
• who put character above wealth;
• who possess opinions and a will;
• who are larger than their vocations;
• who do not hesitate to take chances;
• who will not lose their individuality in a crowd;
• who will be as honest in small things as in great things;
• who will make no compromise with wrong;
• whose ambitions are not confined to their own selfish desires;
• who will not say they do it” because everybody else does it”;
• who are true to their friends through good report and evil report, in adversity as well as in prosperity;
• who do not believe that shrewdness, cunning, and hardheadedness are the best qualities for winning success;
• who are not ashamed or afraid to stand for the truth when it is unpopular;
• who can say “no” with emphasis, although all the rest of the world says “yes.”
Psalm 138:8 in a MUG
Thank you, Lis for this gift. I am not sure if this is a Christmas or a New year gift or just a gift — – anyway, thank you! And thank you as well for that special note, I am really glad that Sheena wrote notes for us. I was surprised! (*Parang fan lang*)
The simple mug became special because of its unique and creative design. Everyday, this would always remind me that God is working out for His plans in my life.
I was also reminded of the business we are planning to set up – no concrete plan until now! But I hope we could come up to a good plan soon.
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It is raining outside
And very cold inside.
I wish to stop the rain
Or feel free to drown myself under
I wish to hold the raindrops
Or play under the rain.
Let it pour! Let it pour!
And drown me!
This too shall pass.
Drown me!
Leave me!
Let me feel the strong wind.
Let me love the rain.
*natagpuan kung scribbles sa paper na nasa jacket na nalabhan na. i think i wrote this last 2009 when i was making a major decision.
Where the Magic Stays…:]
Swaying back and forth while wishing that it would stop sooner
Staying strong at each swing, holding friends to keep you strong.
Telling self you can do it. Felt victory when it finally stops.
Anchors Away.
So slow to move up. Increasing anticipation to be on the top.
Too fast to go down. Free fall, floating on the air.
Extremely slow, extremely fast.
Extremes Tower Ride.
Pulls backwards from the station and up a lift hill.
Releases and passes through stations, enters different loop.
Upside down, increasing speed. Fighting fear.
Space shuttle Ride.
Waiting for your turn in the long queue to see the comic show
Much of the heartbeat stopping rides, lighter this time.
Little bit of shakes, taste of the character’s real experience.
Rialto.
Thought it was harmless, thought it was easy.
But you were shaken, tested, and soaked
Patience and forbearance challenged.
Rio Grande.
Amidst the crowd below, there is stillness on the top.
Magnificent view, lights, feeling the cold wind.
The wonderful conversation in between silence.
Wheel of fate.
Merry Christmas!!!
To my very few blog followers.
To my dear officemates and customers.
To my friends who were with me for the past 17 years.
To my precious friends who were with me for the past 11 years.
To my covenant friends for the past 7 years, you made me all feel so secured.
To my officemate and fun friends.
To my dear friends, close friends, best friends, all of you who are in my inner circle of friends, thanks for never ending love.
To that someone whom I wanted to kiss and hug.
To my new friends.
To that new friend who appeared and supported me in the last quarter of this year, I really appreciate you.
To my owl roommates, sometimes we don’t exchange words (we are all workaholic. lol).
To my Destiny family, who made me tired but I loved so much!
To my student-much sister and cousin, your room is rarely neat and clean. Lol.
To my brother who has his first girlfriend this year.
To my little sister who remains to be as charming and angelic as she is.
And To my parents who never fails to give their support.
Sincerity
If you happen to know me and care for me, I’ll tell you my inner situation— I am not happy. And I am not sure when will I be ok (at least in terms of this certain aspect). If you are my true friend – thanks. I appreciate your comfort and all your kind words for the past days. I do appreciate your simple ways to cheer me up – spend time talking to me, giving me hanky/tissues, texting me, or giving me food. I may have not expressed my sincerest gratitude but I appreciate you. If you are trying to sympathize but you really don’t care, please don’t try. I can actually identify your insincerity and I don’t need it, please. After all, I don’t need the whole world to sympathize with me. I just need true friends.
Things, Today, Thankful
Richard lend me a book entitled, “Your Best Life Now.” I’m trying to make it a habit to read one chapter a day so that I won’t be overloaded with concepts and I would have enough time to digest one idea at a time. Today, I read about developing a healthy image. It says that we should be focused on renewing ourselves positively instead of dwelling on our negative and failure side. Moving forward, I was inspired by the man mentioned in the book. For him to move forward and change the course of his life, he started listing the things he should be thankful to God. I thought of making a list of my own. I am not sure if this would be a habit but let me start with this. I’m thankful for…
1. His boundless grace in my life. I’m not perfect, I’m a sinner. But his abounding grace always saved me.
2. His blessings, financial blessings. God never fails to provide all my needs and wants.
3. My job. Seriously.
4. My family, inspiring and helping me each day. And still welcoming me despite my imperfections. 
5. My friends, my inner circle friends, for my one-text-away friends, for one buzz away friends, for my special friends, for ALL my friends.
6. God is giving me dream and dreams. Dreams give me hope.
On a lighter tone, I’m thankful that today, God…
1. Give me reasons to smile.
2. Gave me ability to multitask – cook, clean, strum guitar, read book, and prepare myself to go to office.
3. Woke me up not too early and not too late (I don’t usually use alarm clocks).
4. Created people to creatively write books, books that I usually read and entertained me on my way to office
5. Used strong men to drive the pedicab, row the boat, drive the jeepney. Without them, how can I go to office, right?
6. Gave me cool officemates who are working professionally and entertainingly at the same time.
7. Gave me intellectual and technical abilities.
Let me stop with above items because if I’ll continue my list it would be a loooong list. I’m sure that you have your own things to be thankful. Start to thank God, now!
